I dont know how to feel about today….
My good news came first…..HIP HOPS ABS CAME! I was so walking on cloud 9…ready to get home, cook dinner and then dance my bootay off.
Then my daughter calls….says she thinks her water is leaking. I’m at work so I call my mom and she agrees to take her to her OB. Everything was fine…still dilated to less than 1cm. So thats good. Mom bought her something to eat and took her back home.
Yesterday my mom tells me she & my stepdad are going to stay together…more good news BUT then tells me that my stepdad is sick. I ask her if it is serious..she says yes but doesnt want to talk about it over the phone. Today she tells me my stepdad has an inoperable brain stem tumor. OMG…while I was on the phone with my mom I could feel the lump coming up in my throat & the tears burning my eyes but i didnt cry until I hung up…….it was about that time my daughter called to ask me something. I didnt tell her why I was crying..just that we would talk about it later. 2 minutes later my mom calls back wanting to know why I upset my daughter..OH COME ON MOM…Sam has been my stepdad for 16 years…not to mention the fact that he has been my friend. She says dont cry..be strong…I am a strong person but you just dropped a bomb on me. I love my stepdad and I will keep a stiff upper lip for his sake & in front on the family BUT I am upset..I can cry when I want.
So I dont know…its one of those days you wish you could rewrite…
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Oh no–I’m so sorry to hear that. You need your time to grieve even if you have to do it privately–since this was just laid on you, of course your gonna cry. Heck, I wanna cry just reading this. Big hugs.
aww stupid computer thief–its got my comment.
I got it.
Thank you
I would cried too. Mom died last January and I still cry often. I still can’t believe she is gone. I felt like a crazy person after she died. I would cry in stores, at the club, at a party. Mom liked flowers, so flowers would make me cry. Dad held his all in like the old timers do, but recently he said it was the worst thing that could happen to anyone. Then, we changed the subject. He can’t bear to look at pictures or quilts she made or anything. My sister who was holding her hand when she died can’t let go at all. I feel sorry for her the most. What you feel when someone is that ill is normal. I am not one who can hold it inside of me. You are doing what the rest of
us would do. I am sorry for what you will go through.
Tiffany, i am so sorry! You cry if you need to, nothing wrong with that. I will sure be praying. glad you got your workout!
Major ((((((((((hugs))))))))))!! I was so pumped up to her about the dvd’s and then to hear about your stepdad brought me right on down. Yeah, cry if you want to I got teared up and I dont even know him. Tears aren’t always a sign of weakness, they are signs of caring as well. My prayers go out to you and your family for emotional strength.
(((((((((((((((TIFFANY))))))))))))) HUG and another hug honey. You are just amazing hon - all this going on. I’m glad the dvd is here. I want to hear all about it.
Keep us posted on your stepdad.
Wow. My thoughts go out to you.
Hey Tiff-
You have us. And you have to stay strong ok? If you need ANYTHING… You know were here for you.
Im sad to hear about your Step dad. I know you will be ok and you will stay strong. You have a lot going on. And a lot to look forward to!
But just because you are strong, doesnt mean you cant cry. Crying helps get things out. So you cry if you need to doll! And seriously, vent to us. We are here for you!
Ill keep you and all of your family in my thoughts. I wish you all the best in the hard times. And Im happy for all the good times youre about to have!